I know all too well about those days you have, the ones where you want to give up on everything and give into a complete breakdown. I have seen those days myself.
I have done exactly what you are doing, I have smiled through it all and held everything in. I helped others without taking the time to even consider asking for help myself. I didn’t want anyone to know how truly weak I am. I took my steps although they were small I never missed one.
Some days screaming into my bed before I cried myself to sleep was all that kept me going. I woke up each day with no energy or ‘want’ to get out of bed, but I got out of bed anyway. I do not know what you’re going through, but I know what you are feeling. You are drowning just as I have before. I want to send some advice your way but only if you will listen closely. Take the following words to heart.
Thank you for doing all that you do. thank you for You are strong and you are amazing. You will make it through this, while times are rough and you are going through a lot right now. You are a fighter. I am proud of you.
Thank you for waking up even though it is hard. Thank you for living and breathing, for being there for others. Thank you for being yourself no matter the situation and loving those around you despite their demons.
You are where you need to be right now, and you will become even more fantastic in the end because of what you are facing now. Keep working, stay strong, you will make it through this. Do not give up. Be proud of yourself and all you have accomplished. Moments like these where you want to give up will be rewarding in the end.
You are not alone.